Hey darling if you look at your phone you’ll notice I called about the same
time you started writing this email.
I “heard” you calling to me…
I love you
Thank you for this email and for everything you are doing there. You are the
glue that holds our families together. Thank you.
Your Heart
[Heart] wrote:
IT JUSTS NEEDS A BATH.
I LOVE YOU!
IT COST 117.00 INSTEAD OF A LOT MORE LIKE I THOUGHT AND THAT INCLUDES THE
TIRE GETTING FIXED.
I AM GETTING SO EXCITED NOW!
WE ARE WRITING WITH [—], [—] APOLOGIZED, YOUR MOM IS HAPPY WE ARE
GOING, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
I HAVE SEXY UNDERWARE, [—]’S FINGER IS BETTER, [—] IS STILL CUTE, [—]
AND HER SISTER AND [—]’S WIFE FOUND [—]’S RETAINERS. I LOVE THEM. I
WILL HAVE [—] THANK THEM PERSONALLY. SEND [—] THE LINK TO OUR FAMILY
PICTURES, PLEASE. THEY WANT TO SEE US.
BRUNETTE. REDHEAD. BLONDE. WHICH DO YOU PREFER?
[—] AND YOUR MOM PLANNED A GOING AWAY PARTY FOR THURSDAY NIGHT. WE WILL BE AT THE AIRPORT HOTEL WITH NO CAR. I TOLD YOUR MOM I WOULD COME UP WITH A PLAN AND MAKE IT WORK. I NEED TO SHOW HER WE CAN BE FLEXIBLE. I ALSO TALKED WITH YOUR MOM ABOUT HER PERSEPTION THAT WE NEVER CAME TO VISIT AND THAT WE WERE NOT BEING BAD CHILDREN. I TOLD HER THAT WE WERE INSTRUCTED THAT SHE NEEDED REST AND QUIET WHEN SHE WAS ILL. SHE WAS SAD TO HEAR THAT BUT YET RELEIVED. SHE THOUGHT WE DIDN’T CARE.
I TOLD HER IT WAS THE OPPOSITE. WE CARED ENOUGH TO LET HER REST. WE LAUGHED OVER THE MIS-UNDERSTANDING. WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYBODY’S DIFFERENT DADS AND LACK OF DADS AND ALL KINDS OF STUFF. I THINK IT HELPS HER TO BE ABLE TO TALK WITH ME ABOUT THINGS THAT MAKE HER VERY UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN OTHER PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THEM . LIKE YOUR BIO-FATHER FOR EXAMPLE. I REALLY PUSHED HER ON LOOKING AT LIFE FROM OTHER PEOPLES PERSPECTIVE. SHE DID A GREAT JOB WITH YOU, AND I WITH [—], ETC.ETC…. WE DID TALK ABOUT [—] AND [—]. THAT [—] SHOULD HAVE GONE BACK TO THE TRIBE. SHE DIDN’T COMPLETELY SAY IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER BUT WE WENT ALL AROUND IT WITH OUT ANY FREEAKING OUT, SHE SAID SHE ASKED YOU IF YOU KNEW WHAT YOU WERE DOING, LAWS, FAMILY ETC… SHE IS MORE UNDERSTANDING TO IT THEN I THOUGHT. GRANTED THAT WAS YESTERDAY, MAYBE NOT HOW SHE WOULD FEEL TODAY.BUT NONE THE LESS. WE TALKED ABOUT [—] AND WAHT MY ROLE WAS IN YOU LEAVING [—]. SHE INSISTED THAT I CAUSED YOU TO LEAVE AND I SAID YOU WERE ALREADY GONE, SHE SAID NO, I SAID NOT PHYSICALLY, BUT YOUR HEART LEFT LONG BEFORE I CAME ONTO THE PICTURE. I TOLD HER I HAD VOWED TO BE [—]’S FRIEND IF NEED BE TO SUPPORT YOU, AS A FRIEND, IF [—] WOULD MOVE DOWN HERE. I ALSO TOLD HER WE HAVE A LOT OF DEBT TO PAY OFF AND THAT EVEN WHEN YOU WERE UNEMPLOYED WE SENT [—] MONEY AND THAT WE SEND HER EXTRA MONEY NOT THRU THE COURTS. I HAD TO TELL HER. NOT HOW MUCH BUT THAT WE DO AND WE HAVE ALL THE RECEIPTS. SHE LOOKED A LITTLE SHOCKED BUT SOME HOW SATISFIED AT THE SAME TIME. IT WAS GOOD FOR ME TO TELL SOMEONE. WE TALKED ABOUT [—] NOT WATCHING HIS KIDS DURING THE COLORADO RENIUNE AND THAT IS HOW HE WAS ABLE TO VISIT HER ON HER DEATH BED AND YOU WEREN’T. WE NEED TO TALK TO HER WAY MORE OFTEN.
SHE TAKES RESPONABILITY FOR US NOT KNOWING THAT THE KIDS MAYBE WANTED TO COME DOWN THIS SUMMER. SHE FEELS VERY BAD SHE DIDN’T MENTION IT TO YOU AND THAT YOU REALLY HAD NO IDEA. BUT SHE IS NOT MAD AT US. AFTER ALL OUR TALK I GET THAT SHE WANTS TO SEE YOU REACH OUT TO THEM IN SOME WAY , TO HEAL HER HEART ABOUT HER CHILDREN PAIN. THAT IS THE MAIN THING REALLY. I TALKED ABOUT [—] AND HIS BIO-FATHER AND MY BIO-FATHER AND YOURS AND SO ON AND SO ON… TIL SHE HAD TO SUBMIT THAT SOMETIMES IT “IS” BETTER TO MOVE ON….I TOLD HER, WE TALKED ABOUT GOING FOR CUSTODY EVEN FROM THE BEGINNIG IN EL PASO BECAUSE WE ALREADY KNEW THEN, THAT OUR LIVES WERE GOING TO BE BETTER, SHE SMILED, BUT THAT, THAT WOULD BE VERY HARD ON [—]. SHE AGREED. SHE SAID [—] HAS TO HAVE [—] TO FULFILL HER NEED FOR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. SHE SAID BASICALLY THAT [—] IS A FREAK AND HER MOM, TOO. I TALKED WITH YOUR DAD ABOUT PARENTS AND RESPECTING YOU ELDERS THE NIGHT BEFORE. HE LOVES ME! HE IS SO MUCH LIKE MY DAD. MOM WANTS HIM TO COME FOR A VISIT. LETS ENCOURAGE HIM. AND YOUR MOM TOO. MAN, THIS VISITING HAS BEEN VERY HELPFUL TO MY HEART AND TO THE KIDS HEARTS. BECAUSE THEY SEE THAT I CAN LOVE THEM AND STILL BE FRIENDS EVEN WHEN WE DO NOT AGREE ABOUT THINGS. WE DID COME ALOT CLOSER TO UNDERSTANDING EACH OTHER YESTERDAY. OK GOTTA GO NOW OR YOU WILL NEVER GET THIS!!!!
KISS KISS KISS AND ALL MY NEVER ENDING
LOVE,
YOUR LIFE